I’ve finally done it!
Those who know me, know that making a decision (and sticking with it) is a huge thing for me. I have always been indecisive, paralyzed by indecision. A major life change sometimes takes years for me to commit to. But this year is definately the year for big change.
Maybe it’s because my children are both officially upper-classmen in high school. My son is officially a senior. My daughter is now a Junior. And as I reflect on the time I’ve been blessed with them, I realize that most of that time has been focused on the day to day tasks of the taxi driver, mom, and the employee. Not unusual for most moms, single or not. Over the last few years. time was spread even thinner as I tried to turn something I loved (sports photography) into a business. I stayed stressed, slept very little (often only 2-3 hours/night), and lost much of the progress I’d made previously on my health (because let’s face it, who has time to prepare healthy meals when there isn’t even enough time to sleep).
I’m not sure when it happened, whether it was overnight, or over the course of weeks, but I settled on a decision. I FINALLY realized that I have very little time left with my kids at home, and a short life expectancy if I didn’t make a change. (Well, in fairness, I ACKNOWLEDGED my health issues a long time ago, and succeeding in making strides to improve my lifestyle choices…. until life got too hectic and I slid back into my old routines and poor habits.)
May 15th was officially my last day at my old job. I am now embarking on a new journey, and excited for an opportunity to try something new.
If you live in Oklahoma, you know that the future of Oklahoma Medicaid is seriously in question. As a Medicaid waiver program (ADvantage) LPN/Case Manager, I have much insite into where our legislators have gone wrong. It was disheartening to watch as people go without needed medical and mental health resources, while experiencing the money and time draining drudgery of a heavily beaurocratic, labor intensive program. I spent more time WRITING about helping people, than it took to actually do the HELPING. A request for a simple ADvantage service (like requesting incontinent supplies, a shower chair, or home delivered meals) required a minimum of 5 forms (as many as 60 and no less than 52 pages for a new yearly plan) to be submitted to DHS. Then I had to document all of the work done to justify payment to my company for the work done.
My life had become a whirlwind of paper.
I was recently encouraged to apply for a similar job as a Humana Care Manager. And I got it!
I feel like I’ve stepped out of the stone ages. No more paper.And so much more time spent delivering needed resources, and much less writing about it! No more working late into the evening, finishing stacks of paperwork. And if that wasn’t enough, nearly doubling my income. For the first time in … maybe ever… I am seeing a light at the end of the Single Mom Financial Tunnel!
I’ve also decided to step back from photography (except as a hobby) I can no longer justify the long hours and the toll its taken on my health. I gave it time, hoping it would be a viable career move. It wasn’t. And my passion for photography suffered as well. So, while I’ll still photograph what I love, photography will no longer be an income generator for me. That decision alone lifted the weight of the world off my shoulders.
Now, if you know me, you know this is a HUGE step. But I’ve jumped in with both feet, and the water is fine! I’m optimistic for my future, and ready to take some new steps toward ensuring a long and happy life!