True to form, I have been off plan for the past couple of weeks. and it’s been a CRAZY two weeks. But things are finally starting to slow down, and I was able to FINALLY get back on track, effective today!
I know what your thinking. “More excuses.” A reasonable thought. I know if you want it bad enough you are going to get it done. And I DO really want it. I want ALOT of things, and sometimes everything converges together and I have to choose one. Family, photography, work, sleep, or weight loss.
As a single mother, not working is not an option, and per usual, when things in one area of my life go crazy, they ALL do! For the first time in a while I’ve had more than 40 hrs worth of work to get done in LESS than 40 hours. At the same time, ‘my on the side’ photography business went wild. Baseball/softball/tball season is one of my busiest times anyway, but this year the months worth of work had to be crammed into 2 weeks because half of the season was rained out! And I had requests from twice the number of teams that I did last year! (I couldn’t possibly say no, when I’m trying to build this burgeoning little business.)
In the last 2 weeks I haven’t slept more than 4 hours a night, trying to process thousands of pictures, all the while, my computer has been acting up and taking 4-5 times as long to complete tasks. I’m surprised I have any HAIR left, and I haven’t yanked it out in frustration.
Which brings us to today. I finally crawled into bed at 630 this morning and slept a full 5 hours. Woohoo. When I woke up I got back to work, but instead of continuing to fight with the computer, I focused on fixing whatever was causing the problem. By 5pm I’d made a bit of progress, but I needed a break. What better time to plan a menu for the week and go grocery shopping, right? And thats what I did. Then I came home and COOKED! For the first time in weeks! Todays picture (above) was my plate just before I finally got to eat, since I’d forgotten all day, unless you count a handful of blackberries for lunch.
For me, in order to be successful, I have to go by the KISS philosophy. “Keep It Simple, Stupid.” So I fired up the castiron skillet and fried up some beef fajitas (with bell pepper, onion, mushrooms, butter, chili powder and garlic.) I served mine over a bed of lettuce and made my own dressing by simply mixing salsa and sour cream together. Yum. And so easy. A little homemade guacamole on some black bean tortilla chips. And wallah! I’m a happy girl.
While I was at it, I boiled up some eggs for a quick, on the go, breakfast, and packed some leftovers for lunch tomorrow at the office. In the morning I will start my crock pot and we will have some BBQ pulled pork, coleslaw, and BBQ beans.
Now I realize this is not strictly paleo, but I’m not beating myself up for it. And that makes me a winner. Because I’m moving in the right direction, and accepting of my limitations now. I’m just so glad that I have finally figured out that life is not black and white, win or lose, succeed or fail. There’s a lot of gray in there. And if you beat yourself up every time you aren’t perfect, you are just setting yourself up for more failure in the future.
Love yourself, do your best, and own it all. The victories AND the challenges. And know that it is all part of this amazing journey. I hope you are all had a blessed day!